I lost my Grandmother and I'm missing her terribly. I miss being able to call her, ask her questions, and get her advice, give her hugs, listen to her stories, and I just miss being able to be around her and see her smile. She was one of the most important people in my life. She was always there for me and she always cared. I don't think I'm ever going to be able to get over her death. She was a saving grace to me. When I felt like no one else wanted me, she did and she always made sure that I knew how much she loved me. I remember the last conversation I had with her. If I had known that it would be my last then I would have said so much more. I hate that I wasn't able to really say goodbye. I wish that while she was here I had been able to adequately put into words what she meant to me and how much I loved her. Words just seemed too weak to express it. She was such an amazing person and a great example to me! She has made such a huge impact on my life. I hope that as I make decisions through my life that I will be able to be as strong as her. That I will follow her example and make her proud of me!

So I'm getting ready to move out West! I'm very excited about it, but at the same time really nervous. I think it'll be a lot of fun, it's just the fact that I hardly know anyone out there that makes it a little difficult. But still it'll be a good experience for me. Everything is working out well and so I'm actually able to start relaxing about it and not be stressing out so much; which is going to help me be able to sleep more I think. LOL! This is such a huge thing for me! AHH! :)

Summer Fun!

So wow this summer has been amazing! I've been having so much fun. My friend Lauren and I have been doing some pretty random stuff, we've snuck into a hotel and jumped in the hottub, taken random mini road-trips, and laid in the middle of the street and watched the traffic lights change (like in the notebook). Lol it's been pretty darn fun! Not to mention we're out almost every night til like 6 or 7 in the morning.....pretty crazy, huh? But so enjoyable! :) I absolutely love how this summer is going! Plus Kaden is trying to teach me how to longboard so i guess we will see how that goes.....considering i'm extremely clutzy......maybe he's a good teacher and can work miracles. We shall see!!!!!!!!!!

Just my view

So have you ever had those times in your life where everything seems to be going wrong, you can't seem to catch a break, and you just wanna scream cause your so frustrated? Sometimes they seem to last forever too....and your praying that things will change and you will start to see the sun in the storm clouds following you around. Just when you think you can't do it anymore you finally get what you were hoping for and then everything you just went through your extremely grateful for cause it led you to this moment. Your happy that things weren't working out in the past cause if they had you wouldn't be able to experience this! That's totally happening to me right now and I'm so excited! I can't believe my luck....my fingers are crossed that it keeps going in this direction:)

About me!!!!!!!!!

I'm a pretty easy-going person. I love having fun and making the most of life. I enjoy being spontaneous and random. Sports are amazing! (Although I'm not very good at them) I'm very driven and enjoy a good challenge!